patterns

the more i focused, the more i started to lose track. the more i ignored everyone, the more they started to disturb me. the more i stayed still, the more i wanted to move, and quickly.
the more i ate, the hungrier i became.

a little more and i have to start taking sedatives to be able to prepare for tomorrow. which i have to do like crazy.
which i WANT to do. but then it starts again.

tomorrow, tomorrow after that THING i can start to clean up my room.
god i need this.
maybe it will help to get my mind empty again.
damn.